...since i posted. Mostly because the big gaping black hole opened up and sucked me back in. I have finally found a way to get help without having to be heavily medicated (which makes me feel even worse than I already do) and am starting to feel better. I have done very very little in the last several weeks. The only thing I have done with any consistency is read. I love to read and have probably been through 10 - 15 books in the past three weeks.
I wanted to post to say that I am still around, I have been doing the occasional blog reading and have really enjoyed a lot of it. I've missed a LOT of work, and what hurts the most is that I missed working at the shop last Sunday doing tarot readings. I was so out of it and so confused and in pain that I didn't think it wise to try to give any spiritual counseling to anyone. I feel like I let my friend down. I'm sure she doesn't see it that way, but I do, and I guess that is part of the problem.
But, I'm working on it. I feel better today than I have in weeks and I didn't have the usual argument in my head about whether or not I was going to work today. I just got up, got ready, went to vote and came in to work. That is progress. So hopefully, more posts will be forthcoming, with lots of pretty pictures.