Thursday, August 31, 2006

Question for the Pagans...

I've been wondering about something and doing a lot of thinking lately about witchcraft and what it means to be a witch. So...I'm wondering what you think it means to be a witch? Anyone want to share?

I'll share my thoughts on it soon... :-)


Wednesday, August 30, 2006

What is the universe trying to tell me...

Wow, what a week. I have been trying to figure out what it is that the universe is trying to tell me. It has been crazy! Work has been nuts and I've been working 15+ hours per day. I have neglected my housework, yardwork and pretty much everything else. On Monday I come home to find that my poor beastie of a dog has an ear flap (lobe) that is swollen and looks/feels like a pillow. I, of course, rush him to the emergency clinic and they tell me he has an infection in his ear that has caused him to shake his head alot. I think about this for a minute and say yes, but he has always shaken his head alot. Anyway, they go on to say that the violent shaking has caused tiny blood vessels in his ear flap to burst causing it to become basically a blood pillow. Ick.

So, they give me drops and tell me to take him to his regular vet the next day. I took him to a new vet (because I don't like the one he'd been seeing) and they say he has to have surgery to drain the blood.
Long story short, he has his head wrapped up like he was in a war and lost an ear. I'm supposed to try to keep him from shaking his head...yeah right! And, I can see how much pain he is in, when I look in his eyes.
On top of that, one of my neighbors apparently reported me to the local city government for not mowing (which I had just done), animal smell and weeds. of my credit card companies is trying to sue me for non payment (although, this has since been worked out...they were trying to charge me interest on an account that had already been paid off). UGH!

This week had best get better soon. I don't know how much more I can take.
I hope to have a more interesting post later in the week. I've been giving some things a lot of thought lately and would like to write about them here to see what people think.


Wednesday, August 23, 2006

For the Witch in all of us...

A New Moon Spell for financial help...

To increase your finances on the new moon take a check from your checkbook:
1. Leave the date blank.
2. Pay to the order of your name.
3. In the amount write paid in full.
4. Sign it The Law of Abundance.
5. Place it where you will see it daily.


Is the grass really greener?

Is the grass really greener on the other side? Well, I don't know, but it sure is easier to tell when the grass has been mowed! :-) Yes, I finally got the yard mowed after two weeks. Ugh...but I'm so glad it is done. Now I can work on some other projects that I have wanted to do. I have some new ideas for my spirit wreaths and I want to start working on those. With the new moon today, I can start on them.
Work has been going nuts and I am so stressed out about it. There just seems to be too much to do in a day. Anyway, I'm going to start writing out my plans for the wreaths and figure out what supplies I'll need to pick up.

Monday, August 21, 2006

Can't see the house for the grass...

You know that saying, You can't see the forest for the trees? Well, at this point, I can't see my house for the grass. At least it feels that way. I haven't mowed in two weeks and was planning to do it tonight. I took the gas can with me to work so I could stop at home and get the gas for the mower. I took it into the office so that it wouldn't explode in my car or make the car smell so bad (heat and gas fumes - ick!). Well, when I left the office this afternoon, guess what I forgot to get? The gas can. I couldn't go back for it because they lock the building down after 5 and I can't get back in. So, the grass is still growing! I MUST mow tomorrow!

ugh ugh ugh...
I sent an email to that lady I wrote about yesterday. I hope it doesn't turn into a bad situation. I feel really bad about it, but there is just no way to work it out right now.

When I was in the shop this weekend I got a new book and some candles. They also have a frequent shopper discount thing and I earned another gift certificate to spend. Yay! The book is New Moon Astrology by Jan Spiller. I'm looking forward to reading it. From what I have heard aobut it, it gives different ways to make "wishes" on the new moon based on the astrological locations. I need to check it out tonight or tomorrow since Wednesday is the new moon. Tonight is the season premier of Prison Break! Yay!!! I'm looking forward to that and also to the series premier of Vanished. It looks like an interesting show.

Anywho, I'm still hunting for a good deal on a digital camera. I want one really badly. I have a ton of mail to go through and much work to do tonight. So, the oven is warming (for leftover veggie quesadilla), the pepsi is cold and I'm getting ready to sign in to work and get on it.

Sunday, August 20, 2006

Busy Bee...

I realized today I haven't posted in about a week. Things have been crazy. Work has been nuts. By the time I get home at night, I'm exhausted. My yard hasn't been mowed in over two weeks, my herb garden is out of control with weeds and my vegetable garden is also getting out of control with weeds. I have no idea when I'm going to get to do this stuff. The craziness at work is just going to get worse over the next week or two and I'm just not feeling quite 'right'. I don't know if it is the moon in some weird house, but I swear I just can't get my head under control.

To top it all off, I went to this class this afternoon about creating good health or something like that. First, I'm the only person that showed up for the class. Second, it wasn't anything like I thought it would be. It was given by a life coach and before i new it an hour and a half had gone by and I was signing up for a 6 month (3x a month) commitment to private sessions. Of course, these sessions are not at all cheap. I have no idea what to do. I don't think I want to do this and I know I can't pay for it. So, now I have to email this person and tell her I can't do it. I didn't sign a contract or anything so I hope it won't be difficult to get out of. I feel kind of bad about it, but I just don't think it is right for me.

Oh, I figured out a way around my company's web filters so I can now get to my blog and all the blogs I read and get to the Witchvox and such sites that the filters block. Yay! :-) I still think it sucks that they block them, but I don't think I'd be able to make a change to that.

Well, I'm going to sign off. I have some blog catching up to do with some of the blogs I read and then I need to plan some work that we have this week.


Saturday, August 12, 2006

Magic and Blinkies...

My blinkies are dead! My blinkies are dead! Oh woe is me... :-)
I think I was linking wrong and the site they had come from is no my blinkies are dead! I will have to look into getting new blinkies and hosting them properly so as not to lose them again.
My teeth are feeling much better and things in general are looking up. Yesterday was an interesting day. I once again fell into the trap set by "T" and am working now on a spell to help me end this situation amicably. However, I went to my FAVORITE shop late in the day and bought a few new things. I got a braclet for Power and Vitality and a new silver chain and a fluorite pendant. It helps with handling chaos. :-) I went back today for a flower essence consultation (which was very interesting) and watched one of my wreaths get sold! (YAY!) The person that bought it asked if I could make another one with a specific intent that they have and I told them yes. I'm going to email her later and find out what she needs and then start planning.

While I was there I got a beautiful Door Open jar candle and this absolutely gorgeous box that I have been wanting for some time. It is a wooden box with three compartments. It has pentacles on it in various locations. I'll take a picture and get it up on Monday so you can see it. When I first saw one I thought it would make an excellent spell box. Put your stones in one section, your intent or spell written on paper in the middle drawer and herbs that correspond in the third sections. That way the spell/intent is 'surrounded' by boosters. :-) Anyway, it is what I thought of when I saw it and is probably what I'll use it for, although you could use it to keep supplies, ritual jewelry, or other ritual items.

I spent Thursday night on a wild cleaning spree. I don't know what got into me but I couldn't stop cleaning. I didn't sit down for about 5 hours after I got home and then I promptly fell asleep. But, my living room is really looking good and I'm very happy with it. :-)

We have finally had some rain. After weeks of needing it and storms coming all around us, we had a good night last night and about half of today of good steady rain. It was really nice to see and hear and also the day today was so cool compared to what it has been like. It made me think of fall.

Fall is one of my favorite times of the year. I love the chill in the air and sweaters and scarves. I love the sound when you walk through the fallen leaves and the smell of the cold coming. Don't get me wrong, I love spring and summer when the flowers are blooming and everything is sunny and so colorful, but fall and winter are just so....perfect.

Anyway, just wanted to post a little about what I've been up to the last few days. I'm spending most of tomorrow with my Grandmother and Mum and hope to get the yard mowed late tomorrow afternoon. I'm also still working on my house and getting it cleaned up better. If I can get the house clean maybe I can keep it straight now. :-)


Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Migraines and Root Canals

The root canal really wasn't that bad. The worst part was the fact that I had a migraine while they were doing it. There was no way I was going to reschedule, so I just sucked it up and went in. The dentist called me a few minutes ago to check on me and too tell me they are giving me a credit on my account because his assistant got bleach on my shirt. So, I'm very tired from the meds and there is a slight throbbing in my tooth, but other than that and the headache, I'm good.

I haven't made my complaint yet about the pagan sites being blocked. When I talked to the network guy he said we are just testing the software right now and they aren't sure if they will keep it or not. I thought I'd see what happens before I start this. No matter if they decide to use this software company or not, I'm going to complain to the software company.

Right now I'm watching Inside Man and playing with my new laptop. Well, I say mine, but it really belongs to work. Some of us get issued laptops in addition to our desktops. :-)

Well, I'm off to watch the rest of the movie and keep getting my laptop in shape.

Tuesday, August 08, 2006


Today I felt like I was having withdrawal. I went back to work today after being home yesterday with a migraine and insomnia. After getting there and getting settled in I go to log on to my blog and come to find out that it is BLOCKED! A new web filter was put in last week and now they are blocking blog sites. They are also blocking most of my pagan sites, stuff like Witchvox, Circle Sanctuary, etc. I'm so pissed. I got to looking at the block messages and those sites are listed as blocked because the software company considers them to be "Cults". WTF? I was, of course, able to get to Focus on the Family and Billy Graham sites. I'm ill. I am going to complain to our network department and to the software company. It is fine if they want to block the pagan/witchy sites so long as they block the christian sites, as well. If Billy Graham isn't a cult leader, then who is? ;-)
Anywho, my root canal has been moved up a day. I go tomorrow to have that done and can't tell you how much I want to be through with it. Hopefully it will go well.
Time to go pay bills.

Monday, August 07, 2006

Personality quiz

I saw this on Lani's site and decided to try it...

Pirate Monkey's Harry Potter Personality Quiz
Harry Potter Personality Quiz
by Pirate Monkeys Inc.

I'm like Dumbledore, huh? Neat.



I am so tired of having migraines. I have another one today and stayed in from work. I had hoped to sleep it off, but couldn't sleep at all. So I have pissed away the day sitting at home on the couch. I did go through some mail that had been piling up and I also cleaned off the coffee table. But that is it. There are so many things I need to do and I just have no energy to do any of them.
I wish I could figure out what causes the migraines. They make me so lethargic and well...useless. Maybe part of today's is not wanting to see 'T', which I'd do if I left the house. I had a big backslide on Friday. I was trying so hard to stay away from him. But, I gave in and agreed to have lunch and well... one thing led to another.
I'm feeling restless again, as if I'm not in the right place. I like my house and yard, my neighborhood and being close to work. However, I don't feel like I fit. Do you know what I mean? I don't feel like I'm at home. I feel like I'm just visiting my life, not enjoying it and living it. I don't spend nearly enough time on my crafts, much less on my Craft. And no matter what I do I can't get the house straight and have enough time in the yard. Nothing seems to be working like I want it to.
I want to get away from here. I want to escape. I want wide open spaces, not concrete and skyscrapers. I want ocean and mountains. I want to look at the sky at night and see the stars, not the light from a street light.
I haven't even been in this house a year. How sad...


Friday, August 04, 2006


I was able to stay awake last night until after 11. That meant, I got to watch HEX. I really enjoy it and since it was the season finale of season 1, I had hoped to see it. I believe the show was on a few years ago in Britain and is undergoing some sort of revival on BBCAmerica. This summer they are going to start showing Season 2. I think, if I remember correctly, the series was cancelled after the second season. So, I'd best watch while I can.
Last night's episode was the best I've seen so far. If you are interested, I think there is a marathon on BBCAmerica starting at 9pm on Saturday. (I believe that is 9pm Eastern time).

Anywho, I'm still very tired. I really think this medication is wiping me out. That and the heat. It is so hot. I can't breathe when I step outside, so of course, I'm staying in as much as possible. Which means my herb bed is in desperate need of weeding as is part of my veggie garden. I hope when the temps cool down at bit to hit the weeding hard.

"T" is after me again. He goes through periods of barely speaking to me and then goes back to wanting to spend time with me and trying to carry on these 'intense' conversations. I'm just trying to stick to my guns and not give in to the temptation that he presents. Especially when, in the past, after I have given in I have immediately regretted it (and sometimes regretted it during).

Well, I think that is all for now. I hope to have more interesting things to say later.

Thursday, August 03, 2006


I really don't like this new bp med I'm on. It literally knocks me out. I slept through two alarms last night (both to remind me to take my antibiotic) and slept through my normal wake up for the day alarm. Not good! I did manage to get my root canal scheduled though. One week from today. I only have one more pain pill and the dentist is out of the office the rest of the week so I can't get a refill from him. The receptionist suggested taking lots of advil, aleve or tylenol. Ugh.

Well, that is about it for now. I've got a lot of work to do today. I got to work over an hour late and have much to catch up on.


Wednesday, August 02, 2006

I can't remember...

I'm having a hard time remembering to take my meds. Yesterday I sat right at my desk and forgot to take the antibiotic. Then last night I set my alarm so that if I fell asleep while reading I would have a reminder. I never heard the alarm go off.
But...I think I have a solution. I have figured out how to set the alarm on my cell phone (which I ALWAYS have with me) and it will remind me. I can sleep through an alarm clock but I can't sleep through the phone ringing. Plus, I picked a very annoying ring. So...this will work!

Tuesday, August 01, 2006


If you haven't seen the movie "Stay", I would recommend that you do. I feel like it is an amazing movie. I'll admit, I was confused for pretty much the entire movie, up until the end. At the end, it all became clear. I was very moved by this movie. It makes me think. I like movies and books that make me think. Don't get me wrong, I love romance novels and action movies, but every once in a while, I need to think. This movie does that. Ewan McGregor is fabulous and I honestly love Ryan Gosling. I think the critics hated the move...but I loved it.

If you haven't seen it, give it a try. I don't think you'd be disappointed.


Blessed Lughnassadh

I can't believe it is here already. And worse yet, I can't believe I forgot it. I have strayed from my path and need desperately to make my way back there. I was getting ready for work this morning and noticed my calendar needed to be changed. When I changed it and looked at the date, it hit me. It's Lughnassadh! I don't have anything planned and don't have any idea how to celebrate tonight. I think I might make applesauce bread. That is one of the things I've heard about doing to celebrate Lughnassadh since it incorporates bread and harvest stuff. So, I hope to do that tonight in addition to paying bills (it is the first of the month) and since it is the waxing moon maybe I'll do a candle spell while I bake and pay bills to increase abundance in my life. Hmm...that sounds like a plan! Yay!

Okay, I want to say Thanks to Manic and Queen for the advice and concern about my toothies. I really appreciate it. And as an update, the GP's nurse called this morning with the results of my blood work and my blood count and thyroid were good, the "good" cholesterol was 212 and should really be under 200, and the "bad" cholesterol is 155 and should be under 100. Also, my blood sugar was pretty high. So, I go back a week from Friday (I have to fast!) and they will do more blood work. He is also adding a second blood pressure medicine to try to get that under control. I haven't called the Dentist yet, but will do that shortly to see what they want to do about when to do the root canal.

So, that is the update on my health. Fun huh? I'm a little worried about the blood sugar. Diabetes runs in my family. My maternal grandfather had it and my dad has it, so it is on both sides. Plus, I love sweets. I absolutely love sweets. Which, of course, is not good.

Anywho, I should get to work now. I may write more later. Oh...I almost forgot... I went to PF Chang's for dinner last night and would give it 1 1/2 thumbs up. It was pretty good. I'll give a more detailed review later. (I really need to get some work done!)