Thursday, June 26, 2008

long story made short

The quickest way I can describe all that went wrong on our vacation is to make a list. I'm not getting into details... just the basic descriptions...

1 - car broke down and took three days to get fixed putting me behind on my getting ready for my trip
2 - due to car being repaired, couldn't get it inspected and had to take it over 500 miles across the state with expired inspection
3 - first two days at rental house at beach, septic backed up - no toilets, showers, dishwasher or sink... (in small house with 9 people, 1 with diabetes, 3 with ibs, and 2 young children)
4 - first day the 7 yr old gets stung by jellyfish
5 - fourth day my cousins husband, children and my sil were in a wreck (rear-ended with them almost at a stop and the person who hit them going about 50 miles an hour)
6 - spent 4 1/2 hours in emergency room with cousin and sil
7 - spent next day and half dealing with consequences from wreck
8 - last day before leaving, septic repair people came back and spent all day working on septic system so we couldn't use the pool
9 - on day coming home, find out after leaving that we are going an hour + out of our way home in order to get "the best barbecue in the state" to bring home... get to the restaurant and it is CLOSED
10 - finally get home only to discover that my neighbor had cut down my rose bush and several other tree limbs and trees all along the property line - but they had come into my side by about a foot and a half...

So, there is the gist of my miserable life. I'm very close to deciding to move. I just don't think I can continue to put up with the neighbors harassment. I did some digging and it turns out her dad owns the house, so there is no way she will move.

I'm so depressed about it that I can barely function. I'm okay when I'm not at home, but when I am, I just don't care. I have spent hours crying and thinking about what to do and I cannot figure out how to make this decision. I can't really do a reading on myself because I am too biased. I have spent several hours searching online for a job in the area that I need in order to buy the house I want. I haven't found anything yet, but I'm not sure that I'm looking the right way.

Well, thanks for reading/listening...


Tuesday, June 24, 2008

So not worth it...

I'm back...

...had a lousy trip and just getting worse since I've been back.

I'll post more about it later. :-(

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

retro... let's get back to normal...

Mercury retrograde sucks.

I have had some very bad luck over the two weeks and am anxiously waiting for mercury retrograde to end so that things can get back to normal. Several issues have come up which I'm not going to go into here but this is a brief rundown of the other things that have happened lately:
there was the day a few weeks ago, where I ate my friends lunch (that falafel really looked and tasted like steak) and had to buy two lunches that day
on Monday, I fell going down my front steps to take out the trash. Nothing is broken, but bruises and pain abounds.
yesterday my car would not start and after a rousing game of who is going to tell me the truth just to get it towed, come to find out (at 5:30pm) that the battery and alternator are dead and it will cost approx $588 to fix it. But it can't be fixed until Thursday. So, I'm car less for a few days (very bad timing by the way!) I guess it is a good thing that the economic stimulus check arrived on Monday.
I'm not getting on with my co-workers right now. Two of them got into a religious debate and one of them, that I thought was pretty open minded and kind, actually sat there and insulted me for two hours to my face about my religious beliefs. (Half of which she was wrong about.)

I am so ready for a vacation! We leave early on Saturday morning and are stopping through a small town that my mum and uncle grew up in to visit a friend of the family that is 102. The town is on the way to the beach (sort of) and this may be our last time to see her. I'm looking forward to taking pictures and seeing the town that I used to spend so much time in. I love small towns and would have settled there, but the house I wanted I couldn't buy.

Anyway, then we hit the beach and will be coming back the following Saturday. The weather forecast for the week looks to be perfect! Sun, sand, ocean, pool, fishing, I can't wait! And the best thing about it? No WORK!!!!

Well, I'd better get back to work. I have lots of lists to make to decide what I'm taking with me and also decide what books to get to take. I plan to take lots of pictures and hopefully may even be able to blog from the beach. If not, I'll share when I get back!


Sunday, June 08, 2008


I've been doing a lot of thinking today. I have renewed my search for work closer to my "dream home" and have spent the last several hours looking online for any type of job prospects within a 30 minute radius. I think that I'm looking at this the wrong way. I have been looking for something in my current field, but part of the reason that I want to move, is because I don't like the work that I do any longer. I guess I just need to find anything. I told myself at first that I had to find a job that would pay at least what I make now. But if I move there, my expenditures will be lower than what I spend living in the city, except my mortgage will increase. I still think that the outflow of money would be less just to live.

I've also been thinking about what kind of things I could do that would help bring in money. I love gardening and could grow a lot of my vegetables, herbs and live off of those and maybe sell some of my herbs. My friend that owns the shop that I sell my wreaths at would probably buy the herbs for her store. There are so many other things that I could do to make money, creative things.

I guess I just have to figure out how to get started. I don't have much money saved up right now. It has been a bad last few months - emotionally, mentally and fiscally. I want to make an offer on the house. I know I can get the loan with my current income. But with gas prices the way they are, I can't afford to drive 1 1/2 hours to and from work five days a week. I already spoke with my boss and the only leeway she can give me is to work the full 8 hours straight, which would just let me leave an hour earlier than usual. I've also been out so much over the last few months, that I'm running out of sick leave/vacation days. I'm actually in the hole on sick leave but am working that out.

It seems so overwhelming, trying to figure out how to make it happen. I know once I'm there, everything will be fine. It's the getting there that is giving me fits.

I just have to continue to believe that I can make it happen and that it will happen.


Saturday, June 07, 2008

Why... oh why... it so FREAKING HOT?!?!?

I swear I can barely move it is so hot. I went out this morning around 6 and it was already almost 80 degrees. I hope this is not a sign of what the summer is going to be like. If it is, I'll be spending a lot of time inside. :-)

This time next Saturday I'll be arriving in the Outer Banks for a weeks vacation. I am so excited about it! A week away from work and 8 days at the ocean. I'll be on the beach for both the full moon and the summer solstice. I'm trying to get a list together of the things I will need for "ritual" while I'm there. This is a family vacation and my family are all southern baptists so any ritual will have to be disguised or hidden quietly. Oh well, I'll get some time alone on the sand and that should be good. The weather forecast for the week we are there looks perfect. Oh, I can't wait!