Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Not again...

I've been really down lately. I think my bpd is kicking in again. It has been years since it had this big of an impact on me. Now I can barely function. I've have barely left the house in days. I haven't been to work since last Thursday. Problem is, I don't want to go back, ever. I feel so horrible and I don't know how to pull myself out of it. Everyday it gets worse, I sink deeper and deeper. I feel like I am drowning in despair. I don't know why I feel this way.

I don't know why I'm writing this here. I don't seem to know anything anymore.

Blessings,
~*~

2 comments:

H.R.M. Queen of the Universe said...

You have me seriously scared. Is there someone you can talk to, a friend, your doctor?

Draven said...

You have me scared too, please find someone to talk to or a doctor... I know depression is no fun, I take prozac, I had issues on and off but then after my first baby I had the baby blues really bad and then when pregnant it started almost right away... It wasnt too hard to talk to the doc but I was afraid to tell my mom she is one of those "be strong" people... If you need to talk you can email me...But please get help...