Tired of migraines

I'm so tired of migraines. There has got to be some way to get relief from all these headaches. I've been wanting to post and talk about my trip but I've had no energy and very little time since I returned. Tonight is bill paying and laundry. I have some pictures that I can post. The ones that I took came out well until they were put on disk. The regular pics are great but the ones on disk are so grainy and blurry. I don't know why that happened. I may try to post some anyway. I have some that my uncle sent that he took and they are great. Of course, he and his wife are professional photographers and videographers.

I had a FABULOUS time in Cancun. I hope to get to go next year. I got a nice tan (not too dark or red) and was able to do a lot of swimming. The food was great and everyone was so nice. This trip was a first for me in many ways. It was my first time in Mexico, first time out of the US and the first time I went PARASAILING! It was soooo great! Keep in mind I'm deathly afraid of heights. It was weird, my sil and I watched some people doing it and talked about how great it looked and how much fun it would be. Then we decided we would do it. I never got scared. I couldn't believe that I didn't get scared but I didn't. It was a blast! We were about 300 ft in the air out over the ocean. It was unbelievably beautiful. The water was so blue and clear. Absolutely stunning! Anyway, I loved it. I had the best time and really want to go back. I'm going to have to start saving my pennies so I can go next time.

I guess I'd best get back to work. Just a little longer an I can go to the video store and grocery for cat food (if I forget to bring that home I think they will kill me in my sleep). Then, I can go home and get the bills paid and see if I can start saving some money for next years cancun trip. :-)

Blessings
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Home again...

I arrived home late yesterday. I had a blast last week. Cancun is a great place to visit. I have lots of pics that I'll try to post maybe tomorrow or sometime this week. I have a ton of mail to go through and laundry to get done.

Blessings
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Time to fly...

I have to be up in 6 hours. I have to be ready to leave in 7. I'm exhausted already and haven't finished packing. But...I'm on my way to CANCUN!!!! I'm so looking forward to this trip. I really need a vacation. I hope this will be a good one.

Have a great week and I'll try to write when I can. I'll also take lots of pictures to post.

Blessings
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Countdown has begun...

I've started my Cancun countdown. I've been getting things prepared and making sure I have all I need to take on my trip with me. Yesterday I bought an mp3 player so I'd have some distraction while on the plane. I'm trying to decide what books to take. I don't want to take anything too "witchy" as my family that I will be traveling with is extremely Southern Baptist conservative. And I really just don't want to get into one of 'those' arguments with them. So, I'll have to peruse my bookshelves tonight and see what i've got. I also have a gift card to Barnes and Noble that I could use before the trip. Maybe get something good to take.

My poor heels lost last night in a thriller. I hate dook. I swear there is something unnatural about that team. No one can be that good for that long. It just doesn't happen.

I'm very, very tired today. I stayed up until after the game and then was awoken by my cell beeping to let me know I had a message. A friend of mine (I use the term loosely right now) who is a dook fan, left me a text message.

Well, best get back to work.
Blessings
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Happy camper...

Well, I don't know about the rest of you, but I'm a happy camper. Last nght's game ended the way I wanted it to, although I would have prefered a better played game. It really wasn't that great of a game. And yes, the refereeing (sp?) wasn't that good either. Anywho, congrats to the Steelers! WoooHooooo....

Terrible towel...

WOOOOHHOOOOOO.... As they are introducing the MVPs of the past 39 superbowls and Franco Harris whips out his terrible towel! He is the man!!! :-)

Finished scarf

Here are a few pics of the scarf that I finished on Friday. I have it ready to give to my aunt. Yesterday I bought more yarn so that I can make the last one for a friend. They had a great sale at Michael's where the fun fur was about half of what it usually is. I ended up getting a couple of extra skeens of a dark blue with a grayish color mixed in. It is really pretty. I'm not sure what I'm going to do with it but it was just too nice to pass up.



And here is another one, a closeup. The color doesn't show up very well in these photos. It is much more blue than it appears here.




I really need to learn to knit something different. When I get back from my trip I think I'll try something new like a booda (sp?) bag or something. Maybe socks or mittens. I'm currently freezing my butt off sitting here waiting to see the ball game. I'm watching the Charmed marathon. I don't want to watch all the hype before the game. It always makes me frustrated listening to them.
Anywho, I'm getting excited about my trip next week. I found out today that they hotel I'm staying at has a computer lab type setup where you can check emails and stuff. So maybe I'll be able to post while I'm gone and tell about my trip. I can't remember if I've said where I'm going but in case I haven't...I'm going to CANCUN! Fun, huh? I hope so. I'm not real big on hot weather and am hoping it will be mild while I'm there.
Well, time to check on the laundry and pay some bills before the game starts.

Blessings,
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Let's Go STEELERS!!!!

I'm ready! I'm ready for the superbowl and all the fun that goes with it. I'm so psyched for this game. Yesterday I went to the UNC v Clemson men's basketball game and it was a blast! I had so much fun. So now that they have won that game I can focus on the Steelers today. I've got some pizza rolls, chips, tostitos, queso dip and popcorn for the game. No, I won't eat all of that...but I'll have some variety for whatever I do chose to eat. :-)
I've got on my black sweats and my Steelers sweatshirt and my blanket and terrible towel are ready for kickoff!

GO STEELERS GO!!!!

challenges and decisions...

I've been challenged today and I'm not sure what decision to make. I know I've mentioned my 'decision' to stay away from a certain friend (here known as T). I also know I've mentioned how bad he is for me and that I failed miserably the other week in my efforts to stay away from him and be a good girl. Well, after thinking about it and realizing just how bad I felt about what had happened, I decided to go back to my original plan and stay away from him. Apparently he has other plans. He's never been so attentive and flirty as he has the last few months. And it is just getting worse. The more determined I am to NOT have anything but a normal friendship with him, the more determined he seems to be to be more than friends. I'm so confused. I am trying to just take things one day at a time. He is making this very difficult. See the problem is...I'm in love with him. I know we can't be together and shouldn't be together and I know he doesn't love me. However, I'm powerless when he is around. I try saying no and sometimes I even manage to stick to it. But somehow, I always end up giving in. Ugh...

I've been working on a scarf tonight. It is for my aunt. She had asked me over a year ago and I'm just getting to it. I'm going to see her next week and want to have it done to give to her. It is the third one like it that I have done. Light blue red heart with light blue fun fur. Just a basic scarf, but I like it. I've got one more to make for someone else that asked and then I can start a new project. I took some pics with a pda that has a camera because I don't have a digital camera and I hope to post those tomorrow. I want to learn something new in knitting but I also want to knit something for myself. I have been wanting one of those big thick extra long scarfs. I'm not sure what they are called or even if there is a special name for them, but that is what I want to do. Some friends at work gave me a pattern for a booda bag? (I think that is what it is called) and I'd like to try that. I've only ever done scarfs and I'm a little nervous about branching out, but I have to do it. I'm getting so bored with scarfs.

Anywho, my heels are holding on against maryland tonight. There is still a lot of time left so I hope they can hold on and win. I get to go on Saturday to Chapel Hill and see them play against Clemson. I'm pretty syked about it. I've been to a few games before and I always enjoy it.

I also took some pics of my pet babies and hope to post some of those. I've got to get busy figuring out what to take on my trip. I'm going on a trip out of the country next weekend and I need to get planning. I'm one of those people that has to have a plan for everything. I'm really not good at being spontaneous when it comes to most things. But with some things I can be spontaneous.

Hmmm.... I think I hear a klondike bar calling my name... or maybe some sherbert. I want something sweet. Wish I had a smoothie. :-)

They are calling for some winter weather finally. I hope to see some before I leave for my trip and then again when I get back. It will be warm where I'm going and I hope it won't be too hot. I don't like heat. :-)

I'm almost ready for Sunday's game. I sure hope the Steelers can pull it off and win. They so deserve it. I would really like to see the Bus get a ring before he retires. I'm pretty sure this is his last year.

Oh, what a bad witch...I almost forgot to wish everyone a happy Imbolc. I didn't make any plans to celebrate. I wish I had. I haven't figured out the best way to have rituals here. I don't really have a good place in the house and my back yard is a little too open to the neighbors for my comfort right now.

Anyway, I'd best go. I should do some more knitting although I have a mission I could work on . I'm trying to find some specific information about my grandfather and I should probably do some research on it.

Blessings
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still bitchy after all these years...

Alright, I know I'm still being bitchy but damnit, I have to get this out somewhere or it will eat me alive. My supposed friends are sitting around in front of me talking about sending flowers, or balloons or a gift basket to a co-worker and his family due to their new baby. And part of the conversation was about how they sent stuff to another co-workers daughter when she had surgery last year. Well, some friends. When I had my surgery I didn't even rate a phone call or email. 6 weeks I was all alone and not once did any of them try to contact me. Am I wrong in being a little p'ed off? I guess they don't really consider me their friend. I'll remember that when I'm supposed to do something when one of them has a new baby (which should happen soon, as one of their wives is due next month).

I guess I'm being selfish in wishing that someone, anyone cared about me enough to send flowers or even a phone call would have been nice. Sorry for the pitty pot three days running. Maybe it is the lack of winter weather, but I'm just down.

Blessings
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oopss..

I was actually trying to put that pic as my photo in my profile. Guess I did something wrong. Oh well, I'll keep trying to figure it out. Anywho, that photo is where I got my name. In the poem that inspired Waterhouse to paint that picture Chaucer spelled the goddess' name as Aryadne not the way we see it most often as Ariadne.

Does anyone have any suggestions for books or websites that I can read to help me figure out how to better use Blogger and stuff?

Today has been better than yesterday. Things got worse as I got home but after tonight some of it should be better. (Finances and stuff) At least today is payday. Once I get everything paid I can focus on getting ready for my upcoming trip.

Better get back to work.

Blessings
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Aryadne 

other people's babies...

Why is it that since last January, everyone I know has had some sort of new child experience in their life that they feel they MUST share with me. I'm happy for them, really, but I don't need to know every little detail of their experience. All of them know what I've been through in the past year and a half and yet, they all feel the need to share. Don't they realize this is killing me? Yes, I'm happy for them. I'm thrilled that they are able to have a child (or multiple children) and to have the happy family that they seem to want. I'm even happy for those that didn't really want children but came around to it when they found out they were pregnant. However, haven't I earned the right to NOT be bombarded with this stuff? Don't they realize that telling me every detail of the doctor's appointment or showing me video of the ultrasound is really kind of insensitive? Or am I being selfish?

Some days I wish they hadn't found the problem and it would have just grown until it killed me. Sometimes I'd rather be dead than have to go through the rest of my life with no family and no hopes of having one. I don't know how to make the pain go away, and it just intensifies with each picture and discussion of my friends children or stories in the news about the idiots of the world who smother their children or put them in plastic bags and toss them in a river.

I'm just being selfish. I have to stop being selfish.

Blessings
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Copycat...

I feel like such a copycat. I've seen all these avatars on several blogs that I read all the time so I decided to make one. How original! :-) Long day today. It always is long when I have a migraine. I don't know why I can't get these things to go away. All I know is it better go away within the next two weeks. Because I'm going to on a trip and I don't want to have this pain in my head on my trip.

I'm really rambling tonight... below is a picture of my baby, previously known as "The Beast". :-)
Ain't he cute?!



When I get some better pics of my other babies I'll post those too.
My Tarheels won today. They played very well. And next weekend I'll be at their game. I'm so excited!

Anyway, I guess I still don't have that much to say. I'm gonna get something to drink and then do some surfing or some work...not sure which. :-)
Blessings

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Gilmore...

Have I mentioned I LOVE Gilmore Girls? abc Family channel is great... they show Gilmore Girls at least twice a day. I so wish I had their wit. Paris is crazy scary. Anyway, Gilmore Girls rock! Just had to say that.

Blessings
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Migraines suck...

I hate migraines. I hate them with a passion. I have been home for two days now with a horrible migraine. I really need to go back to work. I actually miss it. Ok I just realized I have nothing to say. Oh well, maybe I'll try this later.
Blessings
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Hungry...

I'm so hungry...I don't have much in the fridge and no patiece to cook, so...I love being able to order pizza online. Yay! It should be here soon. I really can't afford it right now but I just didn't know what else to do.

Work was not much fun today. I did a bunch of boring updates on a bunch of pcs. Y'know...CSI is a really cool show. There is so much wierd stuff they show. Sometimes I just can't watch it because of the gore. Yuck yuck.
I saw Into the Blue this weekend. It wasn't too bad. Geez, I'm rambling. Guess I just don't have much to say today. Maybe I'll feel a bit more forthcoming after I've filled my tummy. :-)

Blessings
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Superbowl bound...

YES!!!!! STEELERS ARE GOING TO THE SUPERBOWL!!!!!! I'm sooooo happy about that! I watched the game wearing my steelers sweatshirt, under my steelers blanket and twirling my Terrible Towel! I love it! Now if my UNC Tarheels can start playing well and win against Florida State, I'd be extremely happy. :-) And Duke lost! Wooooo hooooooooooo!!!!!

On to other stuff. It finally feels like winter here. I'm sitting here freezing my a** off (and there is a lot to loose back there). :-) Wish it would really go away that way. Three weeks from today I'll be in Cancun. I'm getting nervous about the flight. Did I mention that I HATE to fly? Oh well.

I had an interesting day this past Friday. I blew my goal for the year. I didn't make resolutions cause I never am able to keep them an usually blow them in the first few days. However, I did make some "decisions" regarding things I want to change about myself or my life. One of them was to stay away from the previously mentioned "T". I use "T" because that stands for Trouble, which is exactly what he is. I had promised myself that I wouldn't spend any quality time with him. When I say quality time I mean any time getting physical. Well, I blew it on Friday. I gave in to my basest desire when I knew it would be wrong and very very bad for me. Damnit! I tried for so long to keep my feelings urges under control. But I'm not going to give up. I'm going to start again and remind myself how horrible I felt after it was over this last time. {Horrible emotionally, cause the physical part? ;-) Oh baby!}

Alright, battery is dying on the laptop and dinner is almost ready. Gotta go now. Maybe more later.

random thoughts

Well, I wasn't able to take my test on Monday. I feel so stupid because everyone else I know is able to drink that stuff that you have to have for cts' and such, but I can't. I know I needed to have the test to make sure nothing had come back, but I just couldn't get it down. I drank about half the bottle and it started reversing in direction. Ewww...TMI? Oh well, no one is probably reading this anyway. :-)

I created 5 wreaths last week and took 4 of them to EBN to sell on consignment. The one I didn't take just didn't feel like it was ready to leave yet. There is something missing from it and until I figure out what it is, I don't want to send it out there for someone else. I'm hoping they will sell well, because I could really use the money. Since I'll be out of town next full moon, I won't be able to make any. But I already have some ideas for the next batch. This batch was spirit of air, spirit of fire, spirit of water and spirit of the chakras. I thought the chakra one turned out the best. I really liked the rainbow ribbon that I found. Air was my second favorite.

The beast has been very fussy this evening. I'm not really sure why. He's been out several times tonight but keeps acting like he needs to go again. I guess I should let him out one more time before bed. Okay - so we went to the back door and he just stood there looking at me like I was insane. I don't know what is wrong with him. Maybe he's just fussy.

How bout them STEELERS? I'm SOOOO excited about them going to the afc championship game. I hope that they can go all the way. They'll still be my team if they don't. But they need to win!

Anyway, blessings to everyone...
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They always come in three's...

Three is a magical number. Three represents the triple aspect of the goddess. (Mother... Maiden... Crone) Is that why death always comes in threes? We lost another member of our family this past week and it has been very hard to accept. Everytime the phone rings I expect to get bad news about someone else. I guess I'm waiting for the third. Two in a week is just too much.
On Friday, I was given a promotion at work. I'm very happy about it. I finished making my wreaths yesterday. I might see if I can get some pictures of them and put on here. I'm taking them to the shop on Tuesday. Hopefully they will do well. Tomorrow I have to have a procedue that requires me to clean out my colon. I'm sooooo not happy about that. Why can't they make that stuff not taste so vile? If they can put people in space then they should be able to flavour medicines in such a way that they don't make you hurl. I'm so looking forward to spending my evening in the loo. :-) Not! I've got to figure a way to move the tv so I can see it while I'm in there. The steelers play today against the colts. I sure hope they win.

I'm worried about one of my kitties. She is bleeding from somewhere but I can't find where. I tried to catch her so I could take her to the vet but she is very quick and good at hiding. There is just a little blood, and she doesn't seem to be sick. I'm going to try again in a little while.

Well, I guess I'll go have some lunch. Lime jello...yum. :-(

Blessings
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