Wow...my eyes are so blurry...

Is it really 9:30? I swear I just started playing Sims 2 a few minutes ago (actually it was around 7). That game is very interesting. And very frustrating. I read the booklet that came with it and I still don't know what the heck I'm doing. It is going to take me awhile I think. I also must limit my playing time, because if I don't, I'll never get anything done. :-)

And what is the deal with the freaky language? The sim I was working with was cussing me out and I couldn't figure out what the heck they wanted. I think it was a tv or radio or something, but I couldn't find where to buy one.

This is going to take a while... :-)

Hee Hee...
Blessings,

~*~

It's Here, It's Here!!

My Sims 2 arrived today! Yay!!! I can't wait to get started!

I came home and harvested some oregano and chives. I've washed them and am drying them on a paper towel now. Later I will tie them up and hang them to dry. I checked on the tree parts that collapsed last night and they are hanging on my power and phone lines. I called the power company and they will send someone out within 10 days. If the power goes out or the lines drop low enough for someone to touch I call them back and they will send someone immediately. So, I'm parking in front of the house until the tree parts come down because I don't need any damage to my car. :-)

Okay, I'm going now to load Sims 2 on my pc and get started playing! Yay!!!

Blessings,
~*~

Sanity post...

The purpose of this post is twofold. One, to keep my sanity. Two, to keep me from making a big mistake. For almost two weeks now I've been ignored by the previously mentioned 'T' as if I don't exist at all. Then today, of course, he starts in acting all pleasant and flirty. He even hinted at wanting to hookup. Now, I find he is leaving out of town and doesn't even bother to tell me. I have no idea how long he will be gone. By his manner, he will be gone for some time, not just the weekend, but he didn't say goodbye or even tell me he was going anywhere. I'm so sick of his crap. I'm sick and tired of letting him control my emotions and thoughts. I wish there was a way to end this without undo drama or pain. But I don't know of one.

I can't just not see him, because, well... we work together. So, I see him at least 5 days a week and sometimes more than that. We work not only at the same location, but in the same office. His desk is across from mine and it is impossible to ignore him. I've had a therapist tell me a few years ago that I needed to quit my job. I told her there was no way that was happening, not because of him. In the past, I have quit various jobs because of relationships that went south. I know you should not mix work and play, but with this one, it just happened. There is no way we would ever end up together in a permanent relationship but I have almost eight years with this company and I'm not losing that.

I have known him for five years. We have been 'involved' for four of those years. I don't know how to end it without everything coming out. I'm sure, if things got ugly, he could get me fired. While I've been with the company longer, he has moved up much faster and is now in a very high ranking position, although not my supervisor. I repeat...I will not quit my job because of him.

So, here I sit, ranting and fussing, instead of emailing him and asking him what is going on. I learned a long time ago that he will do whatever the heck he wants and it doesn't matter what is important to me. Just as an example, when I had my surgery a while back, I was out of work for six weeks. Six weeks of being alone and being thisclose to a nervous breakdown. I could have used a friend. The entire time, I never heard from him. Yet he tells me we are friends and that he cares about me. He is so full of crap. When am I going to learn? Whatever lesson it is that we have to teach each other in this life, I wish we'd hurry up and get it over with. I'm too tired to go on much longer.

Sorry for the rant, but if I hadn't done this here, I would have made a fool of myself to him, yet again. And I just don't think I can stand to do that right now. The biggest problem, I fell in love with him. I fell in love before I knew all the facts. If I had known, I wouldn't have looked twice. But now I'm stuck and I can't seem to make my heart stop loving him.

Hmmm, maybe I should start looking for a job in Montana again...

~*~

What a storm...

We just had a really great thunderstorm come through about an hour ago. It was so awesome! I love thunder storms and this was a great one. It got so dark really fast and the wind just picked up and howled. Lots of thunder, lightening and rain. Fabulous! :-)

Lucky for me, I came home and mowed my yard before the storm came. When I left work, I could smell the storm coming so I knew I had to get the yard mowed. I think I may try to knit some tonight on my scarf. I'm very tired though and would really like to sleep. :-)

I'm still having ant issues and therefore don't want to cook so I'm sitting here starving. I guess I could eat yogurt, but I'm not in the mood. :-(

Oh well, I'm off to do I don't know what... Have a great night! Oh I forgot that I checked UPS tracking about my Sims 2 game and it looks like it should be here tomorrow! YAY!!!!

Blessings,
~*~

Scarf progress...

Here is a picture of my progress on the halloween scarf. I think the colors show better in this picture than the other I have posted.

I'm very pleased with how it is going. I'm not really sure just how far along I am on it because I don't have any idea how long i want it to be. I've also been doing eye measurements on each section instead of actually measuring them. The last section of black that I did ended up being longer than the other sections have been. But I think it is still okay. It is just a little bigger and it still looks good. I just hope that I am able to finish it before halloween actually gets here. :-)

My health screening went about as I expected it to. I was absolutely starving by the time it was done and of course shoveled food in instead of taking my time and now I'm so full I can hardly stand it. I think my mum is coming over tonight to help me with an issue I'm having with a cc company. I'd like to get this resolved as I just don't have the patience to deal with them anymore, plus I really don't want them to keep putting bad things on my credit report.

Alright, I'm going to go do some work now. Toodles...

Blessings,
~*~

Back at work..

Not much to report today. I'm back at work even though my head is about to explode. I am also starving. I haven't had anything to eat and only water to drink today. We are having a health screening today and I signed up for it. So... I'm bored.

I might have more to write about later.

Blessings,
~*~

What season am I?

You Belong in Winter

Quiet, calm, and totally at peace... You're happy to be at home, wrapped in a blanket, completely snowed in Whether you're lighting a fire or having a snowball fight, you always feel best in the winter.

What Season Are You?

I'm home again. The migraine returned last night seeking revenge for some imagined slight. And this morning when I got up to let the dog out, I found ants in my sugar jar. I had just gotten new jars for flour, sugar, etc...and apparently they are not ant proof. :-(

So, I think I'm going to have to call the headache doctor tomorrow if my migraine is still here.

Oh, and here is a little rant that has been bothering me. Ever since my brother got married, my stepmother has taken to discussing plans that involve the whole family with just my sister in law. I am later informed of when the plans are and expected that I will just show up and not have a conflict. I'm also noticing this from my mom too. I don't know how to put a stop to it.

Just yesterday I was told when my brother's birthday dinners would be. I happen to have a conflict for the one with my dad. They said, "well, we'll miss you." WTF? I realize that I'm single and they are all married. I realize that they all have tons of friends and commitments and that I don't. It doesn't mean that I can just drop everything and show up. And it pisses me off that my time or conflicts are not even considered. I'm really about to tell them all to kiss my a** and disown them all. I hardly ever see any of them anyway.

Alright, well I'm going to drop the rant now. I'm just not sure what to do about the situation.

On happier news, I did make some progress on the halloween scarf. It seems to be coming along nicely. Anywho, I'm going to go lay back down and rest. I just don't know what to do about my head.

Blessings
~*~

Arrggh...grrr...

I went all the way to Wally World on my lunch break to purchase Sims 2 because they had it 10 dollars cheaper than anywhere else according to their website. I get to the store and find that it is actually 10 dollars more than the website lists. I spend 20 minutes trying to get a sales clerk to help me so I can find out if they will honor the price on the website. I was told that it would be cheaper to buy it off the web.

So...I'm back at work...sad...but I have gone online and ordered it for 10 dollars less than what I would pay anywhere else and it should be here next week. sniff sniff...

Blessings,

~*~

Regarding the title of previous post...

...I forgot to mention it. Well, see I couldn't think of a title, so I looked on my desk for something to title it and lo and behold there was a butterfinger candy bar...Well...I love butterfinger candy bars. I think they are my favorites! So, I titled the post, butterfingers...and then forgot to mention it. :-)

Wow, this is a really stupid post...but I'm feeling silly today. Guess what? My head barely hurts right now! YAY!!! I'm so happy! I don't know how long this will last but I'm going to enjoy my first day in fourteen days with out a major migraine! :-)

So, last night...no knitting. I did tweak my blog a little (added some more blinkies, have I mentioned I love blinkies?) and have been thinking about wreaths for this moon. I've decided to make one for my office, probably a peace and tranquility, to promote calmness. :-) I'm also definitely doing at least one for samhain and maybe a 'spooky' halloween themed one.

I watched Prison Break and was pretty disappointed. I thought this was one of the worst episodes I'd seen. I also watched Vanished, but I missed a few episodes and am very behind on it. Then I went to bed. I tried to read, but got maybe three pages in before I crashed. I was at work this morning at 6:50am and will leave at 4 today. I am hoping to go to Wally World at lunch to get Sims 2. I had a little windfall come in and can afford to spend a little dough. It is cheaper there than anywhere else I've seen it. I'm really excited to try it. I've decided to just get Sims 2 and learn how to use it and then once I'm used to it I'll get Makin Magic (which is the whole reason I wanted it to begin with.) I might even ask for MM for xmas. I'm only asking for a camera and so maybe I can ask for this too. I'll add it to my wish list!

So, just a few more days until October! Happy Happy Joy Joy! I get to bring out all my halloween stuff in October. I refuse to put it out before then. Of course, some of my stuff that most people consider to be halloween decorations are year round things for me. But...I'm freaky that way. :-)

I'm going to get back to work now.
Blessings,
~*~

Butterfingers

I get to take my doggie to the vet in an hour to get his stitches out of his ear. Yay! This is also good because it means I get to go home early today! Yay! I am planning to bring him by the office to show him off though. :-)

I saw the Buffy test on another blog and since I am a BIG fan of Buffy I thought I should take the test. I can't believe I'm Glory. Ugh! Although...now that I think about it...I can kind of see it.

I hate that the words don't show up well in the post. I have no idea how to change it to make it show. I'm still searching for a new skin/template for my blog. Manic recommened the site that she got her template from which is the site that I found my current template. There was one or two others there that I liked, but I just haven't found the one that speaks to me. I think my multiple personality issue causes me to want to change things constantly. I rearrange furniture in my rooms at home at least every six months, sometimes more often.

Anywho, lots of nothing today at work. It has been very quiet and that is a good thing, because I think I'm dying. I'm wondering if there isn't a blocked blood vessel or a tumor or something in the back of my skull that is causing the pain. I think I'm going to have to call the doctor. Tomorrow will be day 14 of the severe constant migraine.

So, I get to leave now in 30 minutes!

I need to start thinking about new wreaths to make this moon. I have a few ideas, but have not perfected them. I also want to get my work area more established. I'd like to be able to start on them in the next day or two. When I took in my last batch there were 8 at the store. I am not sure how many I should make. I don't have to take them all at once. I could make them and have them ready and have the owner call me when she needs some more.
Also, on the list of things to do, is get my garden prepped for the fall planting. I'm hoping to plant garlic and collards. I'm not sure what other cold weather things can be planted, but I know I want to plant at least that. I'm still getting bell peppers, tomatoes, habaneros and jalapenos out of the garden. (I picked some last night) and am running out of room in the freezer.

There is also the task of getting ready for a yard sale in a few weeks. My SIL is having one and I hope to participate since I was planning to do one also. I have lots of things already in a container to go in a yard sale, but I'll have to tag them all and I have many other containers of stuff to go through. Ugh...what a chore!

Okay, it is now 25 minutes before I get to leave. I suppose I should do some actual work today.
Blessings,

~*~

Buffy test

Glorificus 54% amorality, 81% passion, 54% spirituality, 45% selflessness

You probably have a complicated, multi-faceted personality. Kind of like Glory-Ben-Glorificus. Passionate and driven with a spiritual side that comes out at times, a healthy taste for the finer things in life and a willingness to do what's necessary to achieve your ends. You're assertive and have no problems standing up for yourself. And, push come to shove, you're the closest anyone's ever come to straight-up beating the Slayer and her gang. Congratulations! If you enjoyed this test, I would love the feedback! Also, you might want to check out some of my other tests if you're interested in the following: Nerds, Geeks & Dorks Professional Wrestling Love & Sexuality America/Politics Thanks Again! -- THE 4-VARIABLE BUFFY PERSONALITY TEST

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 99% on morality You scored higher than 99% on repose You scored higher than 99% on spirituality You scored higher than 99% on selflessness

Link: The 4-Variable Buffy Personality Test written by donathos on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

Am I strong enough?

There is an old saying that the gods only give you what you can handle. I suppose that means that all the things they pile on, the crap, is only what you can deal with. Well, I think I've hit my limit. Over the past three days I have been bombarded with things that I really don't handle well at all. I thought after yesterdays breakdown, that I'd be okay. I thought the pain would recede until Thanksgiving. But, this morning I come into work, and get slammed again.

I just don't think I can take it anymore. Between that and the never-ending migraine, that I swear is a tumor just waiting to explode in my skull, I think I'm going to have a psychotic break. I know I don't give a lot of detail here on this blog about my "issue." I can't even recall if I've ever said directly what the deal is. I still can't decide if I want to or not. Let's just say it has to do with my goals in life and no longer having the option of fulfilling them.

Anywho, I'm going to have to go now and get back to work. Or at least pretend that I am doing something productive. I don't forsee today being a good day at all.

I didn't get any knitting done last night because it was, yet again, nine thousand degrees in my house. I swear I could feel my skin burning. Plus I have leather furniture in the living room and leather and heat do not go together. I think I may still have some of the leather stuck to my back! :-)

Alright...I gotta go... I'll try to blog tonight after Prison Break and maybe I can get some knitting done. I am going to leave you with a picture of my latest halloween decoration...although in my house it is always halloween so this will get hung and stay up year round...although I am thinking of taking it to work... can't decide!


Isn't it cute!?!

Blessings,
~*~

Happy Mabon

I had hoped to post earlier to wish everyone a Happy Mabon. However, I got delayed. I never even had a chance to do ritual today. It was a beautiful day, but very warm and now the house is hotter than hades. I'm sitting here trying to cool off and watching Wedding Crashers. These guys are nuts.

It's too hot to knit. I'm just hoping to stay awake through the movie and then hit the bed.

I have to be at my mum's early tomorrow. The family is coming down for birthday celebrations tomorrow. I just hope the thunderstorms that are forecast don't come until everyone is home. I hope I have some energy left after they leave, those kids will wear me out!

Blessings,
~*~

Frustration...

I am very frustrated and confused right now. My friend, who I refer to as 'T' here, is pushing me away again. I'm not sure why I'm surprised or upset by this. It isn't like it is the first time he's done this. He goes through phases where he seems to really care about me and is there for me if I need him, but then he does what he is doing now. He ignores me. He doesn't answer phone messages or emails. I've asked him twice this week if he wanted to talk, because he seems very down, and he hasn't said a word to me.

I don't know what I expect from him. I don't know why I expect anything. He certainly isn't going to give it.

Blessings,
~*~

Some progress on the scarf...

I was able to make some progress on the halloweeny scarf. I don't have any pictures but I'll take some after my next round. I now have 6 and 1/2 sections. I ended up watching CSI instead of Grey's Anatomy. I've only seen maybe 2 episodes of GA and wasn't sure I'd be up for it. CSI was okay, not as good as I thought it would be, until the end. I think they should have gone with that as their season opener instead of a teaser for next week.

I spent most of today searching for a new blog template. (Yes, I did this while at work, it was a slow day.) I can't seem to find what I want. I found a few I like, but not just what I want. I think I'll have to add learing how to design webpages to my long list of things I want to do. I am going to keep looking, but I may end up changing it this weekend. I think one of my other personalities wants a different look! :-)

Anywho, I think I'm going to head to bed. Maybe if I can get some sleep it will help with everything.

Blessings,
~*~

I'm not converting...

A co-worker/friend of mine just took me to an empty room and did a laying on of hands on my head and prayed for God to take my migraines "in Jesus name, amen." She told me before she started she didn't care what I thought of it, she was tired of seeing me in so much pain and wanted to help. She knows I'm a witch (I proudly wear my pentacle for everyone to see) and thinks I'm "confused", but respects my decisions enough to not push the issue.

I stood there while she prayed, and prayed, and prayed (not to herself, but out loud). I stood there thinking, yeah right, and then a tiny part of me was thinking, Please let this work!

Well, migraine is still here. I don't know if it was supposed to immediately go away or not.

Even if it does work, I'm not converting my faith... :-)

Blessings,
~*~

Thursday...

This is getting ridiculous! I have now had this same migraine for 9 days. 9 DAYS!! How retarted is that? I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm not sure how much more I can take.

I'm also ill with my blog. I tried to add more links to the Blogs I Read section and it screwed up the entire blog. I can't figure out how to expand that section. I'm so frustrated I'm thinking of finding a new template. But I really like the one I have. :-(

I didn't get any knitting done last night. I had wanted to, but I just coulldn't get up the energy. I ended up laying on the sofa watching tv all night. The new show Jericho looks interesting. And I loved Kidnapped. Jeremy Sisto is awesome and I've always liked Timothy Hutton and Delroy Lindo. I think that show is pretty good. It kind of reminded me of the movie "Man on Fire." (A little.)

Anyway, I'm at work, wishing I was at home in bed. I arrived at work at 6:45 this morning, but couldn't get in the building until 7. :-(

Alright, I'm going to go bang my head in a wall or something for a while to see if the pain will let up.

Blessings,
~*~

halloweeny scarf progress...

Here is the progress on the halloweeny scarf. I'm pretty pleased with it so far although there are some things that wish I knew better. I'm not sure how long I want it to be so I don't know how long it will take me to finish it. I was able to get two and a half sections done last night. Of course, I pretty much knitted all night.

My head is feeling a little better although there is a sharp pain in the right temple now. So, I'm thinking about doing a little knitting tonight. I just don't have the energy to work in the garden, which I desperately need to do.

Wedding Crashers comes on HBO tonight and I haven't seen it yet, so I think I might watch that while I knit. Although, I may just go to bed early. I've been getting to work so early that I've been able to leave early every day this week. I really kind of like it. I get there before anyone else, so it is quiet and I can have some alone time to get things done. Then I get home earlier and that will help with getting stuff done around the house. Well, it should help with getting stuff done around the house, if I can ever get rid of the migraines.

Okay, enough whining...I'm off to knit or sleep, whichever seems more fun...

Blessings,
~*~

M is for.... you guessed it...

I have another horrible migraine today. My vision is blurry and I'm having trouble breathing. But I'm at work. I'll be damned if I miss another day of work because of these stupid migraines. I have less than two hours to go before I can go home. I was at work at 7 this morning and I intend to leave at 4. I had hoped to work in the garden a little this evening, but right now I think it will be bed time when I get home.

I'm happy with the progress on my halloweeny scarf. The photo I have doesn't really show the color well, but it is beautiful! For some reason I can't seem to upload photos to blogger from work. I'll post tonight when I get home.

I found another scarf that I want to knit. It is Patons Bohemian Loopy Knit Scarf. I'm not sure I understand the last part of the instructions, but I'd be willing to give it a try.

Well, I guess I'll go and try to fake my way through the next hour and a half. At least I can listen to music in my earphones to cover the sound of the jackhammer working right outside our building. They are adding a ramp to one of our outer doors and the sound of the jackhammer is about to kill me. I can feel my pulse pounding to the beat of the jackhammer. Ugh...

Blessings,
~*~

A funny for your Wednesday...

A first-grade teacher, Ms. Brooks, was having trouble with one of her students. The teacher asked, "Harry, What's your problem?"

Harry answered, "I'm too smart for the 1st grade. My sister is in the 3rd grade and I'm smarter than she is! I think I should be in the 3rd grade too!" Ms. Brooks had had enough. She took Harry to the principal's office.

While Harry waited in the outer office, the teacher explained to the principal what the situation was. The principal told Ms. Brooks he would give the boy a test. If he failed to answer any of his questions he was to go back to the 1st grade and behave. She agreed.

Harry was brought in and the conditions were explained to him and he agreed to take the test.

Principal: "What is 3 x 3?"

Harry: "9."

Principal: "What is 6 x 6?"

Harry: "36."

And so it went with ever question the principal thought a 3rd graders should know.

The principal looks at Ms. Brooks and tells her, "I think Harry can go to the 3rd grade."

Ms. Brooks says to the principal, "Let me ask him some questions."

The principal and Harry both agreed.

Ms. Brooks asks, "What does a cow have four of that I only have two of?"

Harry, after a moment: "Legs."

Ms. Brooks: "What is in your pants that you have but I do not have?"

The principal wondered why she would as such a question!

Harry replied: "Pockets."

Ms. Brooks: "What does a dog do that a man steps into?"

Harry: "Pants."

Ms. Brooks: "What starts with a C, ends with a T, is hairy, oval, delicious and contains thing, whitish liquid?"

Harry: "Coconut."

The principal sat forward with is mouth hanging open.

Ms. Brooks: "What goes in hard and pink then comes out soft and sticky?"

The principal's eyes opened really wide and before he could stop the answer, Harry replied, "Bubble gum."

Ms. Brooks: "What does a man do standing up, a woman does sitting down and a dog does on three legs?"

Harry: "Shake hands."

The principal was trembling.

Ms. Brooks: "What word starts with an 'F' and ends in 'K' that means a lot of heat and excitement?"

Harry: "Firetruck."

The principal breathed a sigh of relief and told the teacher, "Put Harry in the fifth-grade, I got the last seven questions wrong."

:-)


~*~

Knitting fun...and season premiers

I decided to go with the wider stitched scarf that I had started as opposed to the tighter knit. I am more comfortable with these needles and it just felt more right. I'll practice using the smaller needles with something else. I've been knitting for most of the evening and am now trying to flip between NCIS (season premier) and House (which is just fabulous!). Not sure just how that will work while knitting. Anywho, I'll take a pic when I finish for the night and post it tomorrow. I am on the second black section. I am really liking the way this is working out.

Thanks to Lani, I now know how to get started on my Sims life. I've been wanting to get the Sims for a long time so I can play the Makin Magic game. :-) Yay!

So, I'm off to knitting land and NCIS/House watching!
Blessings,
~*~

Finished blue scarf and other stuff..

So here is a post, as requested with a picture of the light blue fun fur scarf that I finished on Friday night. Nothing special, just my standard scarf.

I just finished watching Prison Break and enjoying the blogging commentary of these guys who I find to be hilarious. I try to check in on them weekly to see what commentary they are offerin up. Now I'm watching the Steelers/Jaguars game and sweating like a pig in a frying pan. It is so hot in my house and the laptop puts out a lot of heat. Not to mention the hot flashes that I continue to have. I had planned to knit on the halloweeny scarf tonight while watching the football game, but I don't know if I want to continue until I decide what to do about which needles to use. Anyway, here is another picture, this one of my stash that I purchased from JoAnn's the other day. Yay!

Got the yard mowed tonight and some plants that were looking peaked repotted in better soil. It is supposed to cool down here in the next few days. I think today was our last "hot" day for awhile. I sure hope so. I much prefer the cool temps.

Alright, I'm outta here. Gonna go check in with some blogs that I like and try to get caught up on emails.

Blessings,
~*~

knitting advice needed...

Alright knitters, I need some advice. I started my halloweeny scarf and am not sure if i like the looks of the stitches... Help please!?!?



To the left is my first section. I think I know now why I always use fun fur with my knitting, because it hides the HOLES! The stitches on this look really wide and I'm not sure if I like the way it looks.




Here is a closeup of the stitches:
So, what I did was start another section with smaller needles (I can't remember the size). So here is a picture of the second one. It is definitely wider than I want it to be, but I can't decide if I like the tighter stitching...


I'm just not sure what to do. Any suggestions would be GREATLY appreciated!
Blessings
~*~

Fun day...

So today was spent with my Grandmother, again. I did get to do some "me" shopping before picking her up so here is a summary of what I bought. Pictures will come on Monday!
I went to the dollar store looking for some thing that I need for a new craft idea I have. I'll post more about it later. However, I didn't find what I wanted at the dollar store, but found several other things (of course!). Then I went to JoAnn's looking for yarn. I found just what I'd been looking for plus a few other things. I got a small pretty ceramic pumpkin for my altar and the latest issue of Knit It! mag. There are several things in there that I want to knit but they are all so far over my head right now. There is a scarf in there that I could do and am going to put it on my list for after I finish my halloweeny scarf.
The yarn is a black and an orangey/rust colored yarn. I LOVE it! I've taken pics with the palm, but the color doesn't show very well. I'll post them on Monday when I get them on the computer.

After visiting with my Grandmother, I went to Big Lots and found some other neat crafty stuff and the thing that I was looking for in the dollar store. They only had one, but I figure I can make it a prototype.

So, now I'm home, going to check in with the blogs that I read on a regular basis (you probably know who you are!) and then sit back and start my scarf while I watch football! Yay!

Tomorrow is shopping with mum in the am, lunch with Grandmother again and then in the early afternoon is a class at my favorite shop about what Voodoo is really like. I know the woman teaching the class and she is very cool and very serious about her craft. Anyway, then in the afternoon, I must mow the yard. It is time, with all the migraine activity that has been going on it has been impossible for me to get out there and get it done. But hopefully tomorrow will be the day.

Blessings,
~*~

It's Done!

Yay! I finally finished the light blue fun fur scarf! Wooo Hoooo!!!! :-) I am SO happy to be done with it. I don't know what took me so long, but it is done now! Tomorrow I am definitely hitting the yarn store!

While I was knitting tonight, I've been watching this new show and ABC called "Men in Trees." I'm not a big fan of Anne Heche, but so far I have liked the show. It seems to me to be a kind of Northern Exposure from the female point of view. At least it will give me something to watch on Friday nights other than football.

Okay, well, I'm off. I want to check out a few websites before I head to bed. My head is actually feeling better right now and I hope it stays that way.

Blessings,
~*~

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Okay, so I just spent an hour deleting comment s.p.a.m. from my blog. Three were comments from as far back as January. So, now ... i have turned on the word verification. At least I hope I have. I guess we will see.

I have accomplished nothing today, well, a few loads of laundry, but other than that, nothing at all. I have pretty much sat in front of the tv with the laptop surfing all day. I'm also, sweating like crazy. I think it must be one of those damn hot flashes again.

Ugh...
Blessings,
~*~

Witches Weekly ... answer

At the Witches Weekly Q&A this week is an interesting question.

What is one thing relating to your spiritual path that you’ve always wanted to do, but haven’t due to lack of money, time, etc. (Examples could be….creating your own altar room, going to visit a historical monument related to your spirituality, etc).


I have always wanted my own little "witch room." I guess most people would call this an altar room. In one of my old, old home (the one before my previous one) I had a basement, an nice garage and an very nice attic. It was always what I thought of as my perfect home. I had just started to work on making the attic into my witch room when I was forced to move.

From there I went to a small condominium that I could barely fit all my things into. It was not conducive to much of anything.

Now I have a nice home, small, but nice. In the backyard is a very nice shed (outbuilding) that the previous owners outfitted with electricity, cable and a very nice, small woodstove. I have big plans for this shed. Right now it houses my gardening tools, stuff that I haven't found a place for in the house and the mower. I am not sure yet how to deal with the heat during the summer months. It gets quite hot and I'm sure any candles that were left there would melt in this heat. However, I know I can turn it into something great.

Home...again.

I'm at home again. My head is still pounding and I can't make this pain go away. I can't believe I've missed this much work. I am probably so far behind it will take weeks to catch up. Ugh...

I think I'll try to finish the fun fur scarf today. If I can get that done, I can go to the craft store tomorrow and pick out my yarn for my halloweeny scarf. I also want to learn to knit socks. Last winter my feet stayed cold all the time because of my wood floors and I would like to learn to make my own warm socks. I've seen so many neat socks that people have knit on blogs and it is all such an inspiration. I just don't know where to begin. I'm going to search for a local knitting class that maybe I can take on the weekends or something. It would be nice to learn to knit something other than scarves. :-)

Blessings,
~*~

Knitting and movies

I spent this evening watching a movie and working on my light blue fun fur scarf. I have almost finished the scarf. Yay! I have made a promise to myself that it will be finished before Monday. The movie that I watched was "Eight Below." I gotta say that I am not happy that I watched this movie. I don't really know what I was expecting, but I was not up for the kleenex fest that it is.

I think I cried through the whole movie. Don't get me wrong, it is a good movie, but it was more emotional than I could handle tonight. My migraine was almost gone and all the crying has brought it back with a vengance. What was I thinking? Anyway, I have to go to work tomorrow so I have to figure out a way to get this migraine gone.

Well, I guess I'll head to bed and try to sleep off the migraine.
Blessings,

~*~

Happy Home Anniversary

One year ago today, I bought purchased my home. I guess now that it has been a year, I can no longer call it my new house. What is sad to me, is that in the year that I have been here, I have only changed one thing. I put a door back on a room that they had removed a door from. I have done more to the yard than I have to the house itself. I pretty much just moved in and stacked my stuff in the rooms and shed. I feel the need to really make this a home. The last place I owned, was more like a rental. I owned it, but I felt like I was just visiting. I don't want this home to be the same. I want to enjoy living here and I want to make it my own. I think it is time to start doing that. Maybe this weekend I can look at paint samples. It wouldn't be too hard to paint a few rooms. I think the biggest step is to start going through my things and cleaning out. I have way too much stuff and I need to purge and organize.

I definitely need a craft room, someplace that I can keep my supplies and tools at the ready for my craft needs. I also need to get my office space organized and cleaned up so that I can use my computer instead of just sitting in my living room with the laptop.

I'm still at home today, with the migraine that won't quit. I should have gone in to work, but there would have been too much running nad too many people to deal with. So, I decided to stay home. I probably shouldn't be driving now anyway. When my head feels like this it is best to stay out from behind the wheel. Anywho, I'm going to sign off now. I spent a lot of time last night browsing through blogs. It was fun, but I felt like I was wasting time that would have been better spent cleaning or doing laundry or well, being productive.

Oh well, maybe if my head pain recedes I can do some cleaning or something productive today.
Blessings,

~*~

M is for Migraines

My head is pounding. It feels like my brain is exploding and sending shards of steel into my skull in various places. I stayed home today and tried to sleep it off. It seems to be getting worse. I don't know if the weather is triggering it or what. It is a quiet, cool, rainy day today (I love it) and dark and dreary.

I had weird dreams again last night/this morning. I don't remember much from them, but I remember feeling very strange.

I can't think straight when I feel like this. Yesterday I tried a new headache remedy that a co-worker brought me. One of our other co-workers also suffers from frequent migraines and wanted to try it. It really helped with the small headache I had yesterday morning, but I let her borrow it and don't have it here to try and work on this migraine. Maybe I should get two, one to keep at home and one to leave at work.

Ugh...the beastie is barking at the mailman and absolutely killing me. I think I'll go now.

Blessings,
~*~

Slow day today...

There was a lot going on today, but it sure seemed like a slow day. I'm very tired and fighting a serious migraine. I have some pansies I want to put in my window box, but I don't know if I have the energy. The dark is coming and I am falling asleep. I spent a lot of the day traveling to other sites (for work) and it was such a nice day for it. There is a nice breeze and the sun is covered and the temps are cool.

I did take the beastie to get his ear checked. They removed the bandage and now he looks like a normal beastie again. He has a ton of stitches in his ear and they will have to be removed in two weeks. The vet is very pleased with his progress and so am I. :-)

Well, there isn't much to say tonight. I am going to try to work on my light blue scarf. I would like to get it done soon so that I can start on my halloweeny scarf. Oh well, I hope to get to that at some point. I have no plans to do "work" work tonight. I'm getting a little tired of working all day then coming home and working more. It seems I never have time for my own projects.

Waaa Waaa Waaa... :-)

Alright...I'm off. Gonna check a few things and get settled in for House, MD.
Blessings,

~*~

Blinkies make me happy...

I think I am finally getting the hang of this blog thing. I figured out how to do the blinkies without stealing bandwith! Yay! I have more that I want to put up, but I decided to hold back and maybe switch some out from time to time. I think blinkies are cool! Now I want to get some buttons for my site.
This has been a long weekend. Today I planted flowers for my grandmother so that she would have something nice to enjoy at her rest home. She seemed very happy with them. I can't believe I have to go back to work tomorrow. It seems like yesterday was Friday and I feel like I should have another day off. I guess that is because last week was a short work week. My yard is still looking good. I will probably mow tomorrow or Tuesday night. I do need to get out a few weeds from the herb bed that I noticed today. I have some herbs that have been in pots this summer that I want to move to the bed.

I haven't made it to the knitting yet this weekend. I may try to do that tonight while watching football and tennis. Speaking of knitting...I need advice from all you great knitsters out there. Is there an easy way to describe how to go from one color to another while knitting? I want to get started next week on a halloweeny scarf for myself, I think I've mentioned it before, and don't know how to do the color changes. Suggestions? Remember I am a very basic knitter. I can knit with two types of yarn at the same time, but I have only done basic stuff.

Well, I'm out of here. Time to feed the beastie (and kitties) and change out the laundry.
Blessings,

~*~

It's getting dark so early now...

I can't believe how fast the summer went by. It is getting dark earlier each night. The one drawback to fall and winter for me, is that when it gets dark, I tend to lose my energy. I am ready to go to bed earlier in the evenings. That is not good for productivity. :-)

I finished all five wreaths last night and took them to the shop this morning. I hope they sell. :-) While I was there I visited with the owner/my friend. It was good to see her.

Wow, I really don't have much to say tonight. I guess I'm exhausted from my several nights of being up way past my usual bedtime. I hope to finish up the blue fun fur scarf this weekend and get the things I need for my halloweeny scarf.

Blessings,
~*~

Crafty

I was a very crafty witch last evening. I completed three wreaths and now have to fill the bags and charge them with their intent under the full moon tonight. I also plan to make a few more wreaths this evening. Included are some pictures of the wreaths I made, sorry for the poor quality, still working on getting a good digital camera.

To the left we have a Spirit of the Chakras Wreath. It has a rainbow ribbon and a gold moon and stars hanging in the middle. The herbal bag has yet to be attached. It will have a blue kyanite stone and a mix of herbs that align with or work well with the chakras. I have made one of these before and people really seemed to like it.

The wreath I was most worried about was the one for Mabon. I was concerned that it just wouldn't work, but after I put it together it just
seemed perfect to me. The colors don't show very well in this photo, on the right. The ribbon is a rust color and the ivy and fall leaves look very good with it. It is really much brighter than it appears here. On the herbal bag I attached some fall colored plastic leaves I found at the craft store. I like this one the best of all that I have made. The herbal bag will contain a lapis lazuli stone and a mix of marigold, myrrh, passionflower, rue and sage (plus a few more). I call this one the Spirit of Mabon Wreath.

The chakra wreath is a small wreath and the Mabon would be considered medium size. I have been wanting to make ones small enough that they could hang in the car, from the rearview mirror, or where ever. I finally found wreaths that small and worked on one last night.

I call it a Spirit of Protection Wreath - Mini. It has black ribbon and the pendant in the middle is silver and says "trust" on it.
I didn't remember to make it so that when it hangs both sides look the same. Because of that I may not take it to the shop and may keep it for myself. I plan to make another one tonight the way I had originally intended to do. The mini wreaths will not have an herbal bag, but will be annoited with oil when it is charged.

Well, that is the progress on the wreaths. I'm pretty happy with the way they are turning out. I hope to get into a regular part of my month.

Oh, I almost forgot. I was going to post a picture of my little witchling! She is so cute!
I just fell in love with her. The picture is, again,
not great and you can't really get a good look at
her face, but it is a vision of what she looks like.

Isn't she just the cutest!

Blessings,
~*~

Have you seen the moon?

I have only seen her through the trees but I hear she is absolutely beautiful tonight. Tomorrow is the full moon and I'm trying to get wreaths made tonight so that I can charge them tomorrow. So far, I have finished two with the exception of mixing the herbs and putting the bag on. I'll post pictures tomorrow. I'm unbelievably happy with the way the mabon wreath turned out. I wasn't sure where I was going with it when I started it, but I think it is beautiful!

I'm taking a break right now to do a little research before I start the next one (not sure what it will be yet) and thought I'd post a message. It's been a long day and I'm very tired but I really feel the universe is telling me to get these done. I went by the shop today and they had the cutest little witch dolls. I couldn't resist and bought one. She has long, curly hair (like me) and has on a black and gold outfit and is holding a broom with an orange bow and also has on a black pointy hat. I just thought she was too cute to resist. They had several others, but I liked her the best. She was the most like me. :-)

The beastie got two good reports today from the doggie docs that he had to see. His ear is healing well and his diabetes is under control. Yay!

Well, I'd best get back to it. I'd like to get at least two more done before I go to bed and they each take about an hour to make.
Blessings,
~*~

Pictures as promised...

Hi everyone, I have good news to report. At least it is good to me...I got the yard mowed! Whooo Hoooo. :-) Okay, I know that is silly, but I'm just glad to not have to mess with it for another week.

So, Queenie requested some pics of my current knitting project and I intend to oblige. To the left is my new knitting bag. I have a horrible picture of it (sorry, gotta get a new camera). It is a denim bag and has a snap closure. I can't remember what the name of the style is, but I like it. Like I said yesterday, it holds a good deal of yarn and my current project, so that is good.
Below is a picture of my current knitting project. It is a light blue (or Carolina Blue, if you're a fan!) fun fur scarf. I have made so many of these scarves
and it is really the only thing I know how to knit.
(I have done different colors!) I really want to learn more but don't have the money for a class and can't seem to understand the books and magazines. I am really a visual learner and need to have someone show me what to do. Here is the pic.
I've decided my next project is going to be another scarf, but not a fun fur scarf. I want to do a halloweeny scarf. One that is very wide and very long (kind of like what they wear in Harry Potter movies) with the black and orange stripes. I'm not sure how to go from one color to another. Anyway, that is my next plan. I'm going to put the felted altar cloth on hold, mainly because I don't have any idea how to felt or how to increase, and decrease the stitches. Like I said, I really need a class! :-)
So, here is another picture of my latest book haul. I really love costco's prices on books. I'm such a book whore and have more than I'll probably ever read in a lifetime, but I just can't stop myself from buying more when there are ones that I want. I have tried borrowing from the library, but a lot of times that don't have ones that I want to read or it is a long wait to get them or mostly they smell bad. Since my illness a year or so ago, I have a big germ phobia and I just don't like touching stuff that people I don't know what touched. I think it is why I barely use cash anymore.
I've already finished Morrigan's Cross and am not sure how I felt about it. I guess I'll have to wait to see how the next book in the series goes. I've started The Other Boleyn Girl next. It seems interesting so far. I'm a big medieval history buff and usually enjoy these kinds of books.
Well, I have given you more pics than I'm sure you wanted to see and also more infor than you probably need. So, I'll say good night for now.
Blessings,
~*~

Whew...

I am officially, completely and totally wiped out. I'm so tired I can hardly move. I spent over seven and a half hours working in my yard today. Oh my goddess! Things had gotten so out of control that it is just so much to work on. Most of the day was cool and there were a few rain showers that I mostly worked through. At one point it became a drenching rain so I went in the house and worked inside for a while until the rain stopped. Then it was right back at it. What is so bad is that there is still so much to do! But, it will have to wait at least a few days. There is so much else going on that I don't know when I'll get back out there, I'm also not sure what the weather has in store for the rest of the week.
Anyway, I got some books this weekend (Costco has great reductions on books!) and also switched out my yarn to a new bag. It is a very cool denim bag and it holds lots of yarn and current knitting project. It is very cool. I'll have a pic up tomorrow.
I think I'll go finish the new Nora Roberts book I got. It is small and a quick read. I'm not sure yet what I think of it. It is the first in a series of three and deals with the supernatural (witches, vampyres, sorcerers, time travel, etc). I've never really like time travel in books, but it isn't too bad in this one.
Blessings,
~*~

The Witch and Depression

Do witches get depressed? That thought has been plaguing me for a while now. I suffer from severe bouts of depression. I have for as long as I can remember. I have considered myself a witch for over 20 years. I haven't always been a practicing witch during that time and in fact have only seriously begun living witchcraft in the last four or five years. Still, the depression comes, and I fall apart. I've never handled the depression well. I tend to cower and hide when it comes over me. I make excuses and shut myself off from the people I need to be around and the things that I need to do. I once tried a spell to make the depression go away. Note to self: Don't cast spells when depressed as it tends to make them go haywire.

I find that my best time of year, when I'm at my brightest and the depression is buried deep inside, is the fall. When it starts to cool down and you step outside in the morning and the air is crisp and chill. That time of year seems to calm me most of all. I love spring, when the flowers are just beginning to bloom and the earth becomes fertile. I love summer, when I can plant my vegetables and watch them grow and feel I've reached a mutual accomplishment with nature (even though I can barely survive the heat). I love the thunderstorms and lightening, the hurricanes and tornados. I feel they are Mother Nature's way of cleaning house. It pains me when people and animals are harmed by her fury, but I consider it an important part of the cycle of life. And now to winter. I love winter. I love the cold, I LOVE the snow (when we get it here) and the way everything seems so clean and has so much new potential.

Fall...autumn...that is the best for me. The black fog seems to recede and I am clear minded, as clear minded as a bipolar manic depressive witch can be, and I actually enjoy being alive. I am so glad to feel its presence in the air. It might be hot out now, but behind the heat, slowly pushing its way to the forefront is autumn. It makes me happy to know it is coming. As it brushes forward into being it forces the slimy tendrils of my depression to release their grasp. As it comes closer, the fog recedes into hiding, freeing my mind of its cage. Hopefully, while it is in hiding, I can find a way to release it from my being. Or at the least to bury it deep inside the maze of my mind...

Blessings,
~*~

I'm beginning to wonder...

...about that financial gain spell I posted. Ever since I did it I have had things come up that have completely drained me financially. I don't want to give up though, so I guess I'll be patient and see what happens.

Blessings,
~*~